Love your work

If I have made any resolution this year, this is it. It is made partly in the spirit of resignation-there are certain things I have no choice about- but it is also recognition of the fact that the things I have to do bring a measure of enjoyment which isn’t marred by the sense of obligation.  It doesn’t prevent me from facing some days with the feeling that I am trudging off to my own execution, as I wonder where I will find the energy and enthusiasm to make it to nightfall.

There are two things which I consider to be my work. One is taking care of the kids, and the other is teaching. I have to confess that I am more inclined to find the childcare draining and the teaching energising. Maybe it’s a matter of the sheer number of hours I spend at each task, or maybe I am an attention junkie who needs to perform for others, and I don’t treat Maja and Janek seriously as an audience. Maybe it’s just exhausting to perform repetitive tasks all day- in particular, I am not a fan of cleaning high chairs.

Anyway, the point is that, though I often wake up with an internal groan,  I generally feel a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. I don’t mean a I-am-clearly-raising–two-children-who-will-cure-cancer-and-teaching-all-the-Poles-perfect-English kind of way.  More like an I’m- not- dead- and- haven’t– killed- anybody,- now let’s- sit- down- and -watch- Game- of- Thrones  kind of way.  It makes me realise that there is something to be said for compulsion- doing things which I don’t necessarily feel like doing  makes me paradoxically content.

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Filed under English teaching, family, feminism, happiness, mental health, motherhood, time management, twins

2 responses to “Love your work

  1. And you can reflect like this at 5.30 am! Long live contentment.

  2. Isobelle

    Hi Rosemary

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while now and just wanted to let you know how much I enjoy it. I discovered it during my “Omigod we are moving to WARSAW?!?” phase when I was desperately trying to find out what it was like to actually live here. It was quite comforting, you might be surprised to hear!! Just the normality of your posts reassured me that people have daily lives here much like they do back home (duh).
    Sounds like you are well settled in by now (not to mention super-busy with babies!) but if you ever want to catch up with a fellow Aussie for a cup of coffee, do let me know.

    Cheers
    Isobelle

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